What I have learned from High School… Is thats it not the people around you that will make it a good year, its yourself that will make a good year. and at the end of high school, your gonna find out who is your true friends are, the ones that you will still be attached to after high school. you have all the power to make your high school years the best years of your life. Your in high school, be crazy, have fun. but high school isnt all about friends, its about educations so take that very seriously.. High school years are suppose to be the best years of your life, get into things that you’ll never usually get into, go to dances, have crushes. ignore the mean girls and boys. and that boy you have been crushing on sense middle school, tell him. you never know. make new friends, and keep the old. yeah your gonna loose friends. but they are out of your life for the Good. just remember who you are. dont get caught up with all the drama, make a change in your school, because you can do it!. you have everything to change things. didnt like how the past years went, well every year is a new year, and make it good, and fun.
High school… its a scary place. but you’ll get through it. no matter what.
I always feel, like i have to be postive to help others. like i have to be stronge for others, like i have to be there voice or there helping hand, and i’m ok with that. but sometimes i wish others can be my voice, or strone for me, or even postive when im not. but i always go back to being the person. i like it i do. but sometimes, i break to. i have secrets from people. people i can even trust. but i dont tell them, because there are things you just keep to yourself. i want to be that girl that can be strong enought to take my own dreams farther then anyone else went with theres.
i wanna be that girl that always has a smile on her face because of the people thats around her, but its hard to smile. and i am the one that usually smiles at the good times and laugh at the bad, because i feel like i have to always be postive. never negative. becaue once i think negative, i always go back to the dark place i was befor. and i don’t wannt that.
I wanna have the happy family, my dad with his girlfriend. and my mom with her boyfriend, i hope one day they both can introduce them to eachothers “friends”. but apart of me hopes its gonna happen, but deep down, half of me. dosnt think its gonna happen, because of all the hurt in the past..
I wanna be the friend that everyone goes to but, sometimes i feel like the most terriable friend out there. i know i have goodfriends, but who really is my true friend, and who’s true friend am i?.
I wanna go to church, enjoy God. and what he has done for me, but its hard, because i always think if there is a God, then why did this crap happen to me?, but you know. God nevers gives us things we can’t handle.
I wanna be that Aunt, that my nephews and niece, will love to be around, the one who takes them out and just have fun with them, the one they can talk to. and i want them to know that i Love them, and i will do anything for them. anything.
I wanna be that daughter, that stop feeling like i disapoint my parents all the time. i wanna show them that i can be better. that im that little girl they raised. and i know they raised a very wise girl, but is she even wise anymore?.
I wanna be that sister, that never hurts my sisters for the crap i did. i want to be the sister who has a better relationship with them then my friends. but where did that go?.
I wanna be Hannah again.
Just thinking about him<3, no matter what time of the day it is, he’s always on my mind:)
The feeling you get in your stomach of butterflies, the thumping of your heart, gets faster and faster, and your mind just gets all confused, and wounders…why the hell are you taking so long to answer me……….